Thursday, June 28, 2012
Tears & Heartbreak @ 4:50 PM
So, today was my last day of school. Honestly, I'm really happy. But I'm also really sad.
My friends were all crying today because one of our close friends was moving schools. I wasn't crying, really, because I wasn't feeling too sad. Of course, I was sad she was leaving but I didn't want to cry. I promised myself I wouldn't cry today.
Well, promises are meant to be broken. I told my best friend to give my crush a note I wrote for him, since he's moving schools. It wasn't anything special, it was just a goodbye note saying all the things I wanted to tell him..
Originally, I planned on hugging him and saying bye to him after school. But, me (being the oblivious retard I am) didn't realize I should have said goodbye when I passed by him. I was looking for my friend, and I saw him pass by me, holding the note I gave him. We locked eyes and then just passed by each other like strangers.
I couldn't find my friend, but when I turned around I was like, shit. I should have said goodbye to him when I passed by!
I rushed back to where I saw him, and I didn't see him at all. Nothing. He was gone.
So, I went back. When I got to my friend I was like,
"Did you give him the note? Oh, and did you see him..?" (She was supposed to give him the note I wrote.)
But, then I realized.. he's actually gone. I just.. broke. Tears poured out of my eyes and I couldn't stop them. He was really gone. I kept asking my other friends, Where is he? Where is he? Everyone said he left. I honestly didn't want to believe it, I thought it was complete and utter bullshit. But, when I finally went to the bus stop to look for him, he was gone.
I never even got to say goodbye. Nothing. Honestly, I was hurt. I was filled with regret. The only thing I could give him is that one note. Now, I have to wait 3 years to see him again. Heh. In that 3 years, he'll probably have a girlfriend.
/continues to sob/